Meh. Panties! Meh...

Would have put this, well something similar, except blogger just now decided to allow me on. So after a few things to catch up with I can safely say; meh. That's right, meh.

It isn't as if that solves or explains anything, does it? Well alright, tuesday was my last day of clinicals, if you can imagine. It actually wasn't too bad, 100 questions, 2 more hours of OJT, enough time for one cigarette. However, after it was all said and done I was looking at the certificate we all received and it hit me 'Meh, this is it? Damn well should have given us something...nicer.' Although to finish up on that, on the 18th we take the state required exam followed by a physical skills test. After that we receive a second diploma. However I will be applying to four hospitals and a, as in singular, nursing home. Certified Nursing Assistant; a.k.a. Assistant Ass Wiper.

Of course, that isn't the only occasion where 'meh' has come into play. When I figured out that I'm now in debt to my mother for $6,000 for a split second there was a feeling of panic. I could feel my head reeling, my heart seizing to begin pumping harder, my vision blurring....but then it happened. 'Meh, at least I'm still afloat and not in debt to bank anymore.'

So see, there have been bad as well as good applications of the 'meh.' However...it has been prevalent in situations where I've realised it wouldn't have used it before. Yet there it was whenever a neighbor's wife (who turns heads wherever she goes, generally without noticing or caring herself) bent over and revealed her panties while working at her garden. Black lace with a pink lace ruffle trim, thingy. Yeah, saw them that well, but shrugged and kept enjoying my cigarette more. It only occurred after the fact that...wowza, missed the opportunity.



I'd say that it was a bad thing, that the 'meh' was looking to take over and dull life so that all the enjoyment in the world was sucked out, but...well...meh. It could be worse, a lot worse, this I know. Ironic it saves what it destroys. Although, one possible side-effect of meh seems to be a sudden insatiable craving for whiskey that lasts throughout the day. Everyday.



Though, there has been one thing it hasn't been able to dull or interrupt. Two guesses as to what.